I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel. I tried pouring everything out on paper but somehow I still feel unsettled. Why is everything so difficult? You make one step here in the right direction but you wonder whether the people around you are doing the same and acknowledging the effort you’ve put in. I feel so unsettled, so uncertain what the near future will bring. Any bombs perhaps?

So many questions floating around in my head, its safe to say that as of now, there should be a million and ONE thoughts bouncing back and forth. The biggest question, highlighted, bolded and in italics is - WHY? IS THIS NECESSARY? I just hope and pray that nothing I fear comes true. I won’t be able to handle this.

I trust in myself and I trust in people.