I am kind of bored, but that doesn’t matter. Nothing really matters anymore. I don’t know a thing. I thought I would enjoy the holidays but it seems like I am not enjoying them as much as I thought I would. I have too much of time on my hands, idle - sitting down and doing nothing. Once again shrugging my shoulders and doing nothing much, watching B grade movies and thinking to myself should I go out and have myself a beer and read a book? I don’t know what I should do. Tasting alcohol isn’t exactly a good idea for a recovering alcoholic but ‘hey whatever’ right?

Sometimes it is just so much easier to throw the towel in the air and shout out to the world (that is guaranteed not listening) -  I GIVE UP! BUT then again, what is the point? I am just going to make my situation worse. Because basically no one will be listening at all, most to most they are just going to hear a faint whimper. It seems the world has been so caught up with their own goals and achievements that they neglect or decide that being ignorant to the world’s problems is the best option to secure themselves a long time here on this Earth without much ups or downs. 

It is sad. 

I don’t feel proud to say that I belong to this race that basically annihilates everything that prevents them from achieving what they have on their mind. So that is how we end up with extinction, global warming and all the issues the world is facing today, all due to our greed. 

I don’t want to be a greedy person, but if I think too much people will say that I am being greedy, all I want is a future, all I want is some security, is that too much to ask. If I don’t jump on this bandwagon then I end up as the 99percent, living in fear. I don’t want to live as such, it is not my idea at all of living. 

All I want to do is live. Apparently, ‘to live’ is something that the world right now is in cahoots with.